Confessions

Please don’t let me go. I need you.

I love and miss you. Im hoping you talk to me today.

i thought i’ve shown you that you don’t have to worry. if you think i’ll let these people complicate our relationship again, you’re wrong. why don’t you ever see how i’ve changed? my throat tightens at the thought of how you’re making me feel, like i’m stupid and all i’m doing is fucking up our relationship. i fucking love you.

I am an idiot.

Im insecure

I push and punish my boyfriend over the smallest things and yet he stands by me. Hes not a walk over. but he cares. Why does he care? Why does he put up with my grief? Im not worth it, but he says I am. Hes not stupid. I am. I need to sort my shit out but I really dont know how.

I am going to get married in less than six months but I still have feelings for another girl. I am in love with the girl I am going to marry, but I don’t know how to shake these feelings. I want to, but I just don’t know how.

I’m mean to you because I can’t live without you.

Brandy Morarie is a dumb whore.

I confess, I have fallen in love with you……

This was a very stupid thing to do because it means you’ll soon turn into an asshole and/or let me down!

My dick isn’t small – it’s fun-sized!

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i like you. a lot. but i am wildly insecure and unsure of myself. hence my apprehension of your friendship with the girl next door. but hey, you did pork her, and you had feelings for her. and i’m not entirely sure that those feelings are gone.

at the same time, i don’t know how you feel about my friendship with my ex. i know that you think that i shouldn’t feel obligated to see him, but i do. i feel guilty for breaking his heart. and sometimes, when i’m with him, i think about how easy it would be to go back to him. but i was miserable with him towards the end. like, a good six months of the end. and then there’s that whole thing where i can’t stop thinking about you whenever i’m with him. so there’s that.

i’m crazy, and i don’t want you to find out. i’m in recovery from an eating disorder (seeing my treatment team twice a week) and i have bipolar disorder. and you? you have no idea…at least, i haven’t told you. and if you do know, it would be incredibly awkward, cause i wouldn’t know how you found out about it.

despite the fact that i am holding out two pretty large bits of information, which i do intend on sharing when the time is right, i like you a lot. i don’t know why you chose me. sometimes i think it was because i was the only one around. but i suppose that you wouldn’t stick around if you didn’t want to.

so… years ago(4 or 5) i cheated on my girlfriend (i kissed another girl). she found out somehow (confided my guilt with a friend who was a bitch) and we broke up after 2 years of dating.
She was my first girlfriend and my best girlfriend. All other girls are stupid and it pisses me off.
I know i was wrong to cheat on her, and i know it was “all my fault” we broke up, but i can’t help feel like there was a reason i cheated on her in the first place. She was a heinous bitch after a while and her mother was a woman so evil and lacking compassion i think the only reason she had children was either because she got knocked up and had to or because she like being in control of someone’s life.
I wrote down all the the things she did to piss me off and it’s a good thing too because i have a terrible memory and i would frequently forget about things that made me mad and only remember the things that made me happy…
Now that we’re broken up it makes me feel better to read them over and thing about how lucky i am not to be with her anymore 🙂
But i still feel guilty about cheating on her and wish i had dealt with my feelings in a different way.
I also feel as if I’ve cursed myself relationship wise… or maybe this is just self fulfilling prophecy where i think I’m not going to have another meaningful relationship therefor i wont.

I just want to find someone i can connect with like i did with her 🙁
over 3 years being single… this is frustrating

619202806 – I know exactly how you feel!

I broke up with you after 10 years of your crap.

Two years later – Me i have a nicer/hotter/amazing man and all the stuff i alway wanted to do but you kept telling me not too i have done,got my diploma,love my new career and have visas/tickets booked to go travel for the year with my man.

You- Living at home with mammy,still in the same dead end job,being cheated and dumped on facebook by a ugly girl and doing drugs every day.

Turns out i am a good girlfriend,you were just a crap boyfriend.

when can i pee i have to pee 2

i have to pee

You told me that you would always be there for me till that day when you left me to go to heaven. You said you would always be there for me so what happen to that. One day you were here and then you just left me all of a suddden. Will you ever come back to be here for me again. Its getting close to that day again that you left me you had to go the day after your birthday why did you go and do that to me. i miss and love you brother.
Happy Birthday (March 17)(13 forever but if you were here you would be 21)
You left me 9 years ago the day after your b-day (March 18)

I love you. There is work to do,

I’ve come to realize I can’t hate you for long. As much as you’ve been an asshole towards me, I still can’t hate you. You said you would wait for me. I said, don’t do that. How could I have possibly said, yes wait for me! It wouldn’t be right. You confused me too much. I would have said I wanted to be with you, if you didn’t constantly hurt me so much. I ignored you and you accused me of not knowing how to move on. That wasn’t true. I don’t understand people who go warm and then cold. If you loved me, then you should have been nice to me. I was so confused.

I love Jim!