I’m cheating on my boyfriend. On one hand it makes me feel justified because he’s the crappiest boyfriend I’ve ever had, he literally does not listen to me. He’s gotten too comfortable and he treats me like I’m his family or super close friend. So on the other hand I feel bad because he is a really good friend and I do believe he loves me.
I’ve never lied to him till now…
My Sancho? He’s got his pros and cons…
PROS:
He’s taller than me. I’m 5’9″ and although that might be average it’s still pretty tall and I’m either taller or as tall as my bf.
He’s bigger than me and in a muscular way not a fat way; not ripped but thick and sturdy…very strong. I work in distribution so I’m athletically built and I don’t want the guy I’m with to be smaller than I am but I also don’t want a flabby fatso either so he’s the perfect size. I love how big his hands are!
He’s undeniably sweet and kind. He claims he cares about me and gives excellent advice and insight.
He’s incredibly smart, made a 1400 on his SATs
He’s funny, yet he doesn’t try to be funny all the time, we can be serious.
He turns me on by just wanting me, and he can go down on me like no one ever has it’s AMAZING
Says he does not want a relationship, which is good because I want to be free of my bf and all that baggage and get my shit together before I start on my new one…I think I want a husband and I want it sometime before I’m 30.
CONS:
Major dilemma, his dick is small. Not tiny but too small for his size…or my size for that matter. I’m no fatty believe me, I’ve fit into the same clothes since 10th grade and I’m 25. But I like big dicks and his is not one of them
He cannot finger me worth a damn…he honestly does not know how. I like my g-spot to be tickled and will literally buck if done right I love it so freaking much! My bf doesn’t know how to finger either…I thought this was basic stuff here.
He’s got this thing about my ass…it’s big I guess for a white girl, I’ve been told I have and end-table ass, junk in the trunk, juicy, even apple-bottomed. He keeps trying to play with it which if I’m feeling frisky and it’s in the heat of the moment and I’m turned on I’ll allow it and actually like it but we just started sleeping together and I’m not THAT comfortable yet. I’ve only done anal twice and it’s not exactly my favorite.
He’s 30 and divorced. More adult like than my bf, financially smart, but obviously still torn up about his wife and it’s been two years.
He keeps saying he cares about me and that he wants me to just be happy, he’s even said he could see me being his girlfriend but I thought it was abundantly clear when he said “We’re just two friends enjoying each others company” that it was just friendly fucking, which I’m perfectly ok with if he would stop saying all that other crap.
So my problem….and this is just to keep having sex with the guy….is it really worth all the cons to keep involving myself with this man?
When I put it all out like this I know the answer is no. But it’s like really good heroin, it’s bad for me but I can’t seem to stop. I like him but I know I dont love him. Right now I really hate love.