Confessions

thanks for always making me feel like complete shit. if you ever wonder why i never tell you my accomplishments, it’s because i lost all respect for you. i just don’t care what you think anymore.

I can’t love myself either -i’m worthless. I wish I could go back in time and feel again what I felt

I don’t think I’m ready to get married but I think I’m in too deep to back out.

moonlight, stargazing, campfires….i do have moments when i miss you. then i remember who you really are and it makes me sad.

i never read a book twice.
i’ll listen to a song over and over again until i’m sick of it.
i’ll play a video game for hours until i can’t stand its graphics.
nowadays i can’t get myself to study, because all i’ve done was study all my life.
if there’s ever a habit i want to break, all i have to do is do it in excess.

I really think I hate you for good now.

I’m engaged, but on Friday one of my male friends I’ve always had a soft spot for told me I was beautiful. It meant more to me than it has any of the times my fiance has told me.

You robbed me of the most valuable thing in my life and you have no clue, you blame me? FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU BASTARD.

Please don’t be a miscarriage, please please

I am a Catholic Priest, and in six months, I will be ordained a Bishop in my home diocese. There are further plans for a possbility that I will be ordained to the Cardinalate as well. In order to gain my position, I have done some very unholy things, I have protected people who should have never been protected, and I have defended men who deserve neither defense, nor glory of God. Though I have never done anything illegal to gain the office that I am going to recieve, I betrayed friends, my morals, and God in my quest for Power.

I doodled a doodle of a naked bondage chick (meant to be me) on some toilet paper while I was using the bathroom yesterday, planning to flush it once I was done. I have a fantasy of being tied up and gagged by my boyfriend. We talk about it all the time but we’ve never done it, because we plan to wait til marriage. I forgot to flush the doodle and left it on the bathroom counter. My mother and sister both must have seen it, though neither one confronted me. I feel so horrified and upset by this. I do NOT want this secret part of myself to be exposed to them. I’ve been horribly depressed all day today and now its even worse. I shouldn’t feel guilty for having sexual urges and fantasies, but I do. I didn’t start exploring my sexual side til the age of 22, because of my shame. Now I feel like I’m back to square one.

24/f

I’m sick of apologizing for things that I didn’t do just to keep our friendship alive. You say you care about me and you want to be involved in my life, but I tell you things and you act like you could not care less.
I almost killed myself because of you…and you didn’t even notice.
If I didn’t have that one friend that actually gave a shit, I would be dead right now.
And you have the nerve to call yourself my best friend? You have no idea how to be one of those.

I have finally come to the realization that you don’t miss me. And you never cared. That much is enough to make me want to end it all. Instead, it’s how I am getting over you. Thank you.

I started Testosterone three days ago, and holy shit. Life is pretty fucking sweet.

I masturbated, not because I wanted to…But because I felt the urge to after a hard workout. And it’s never felt better! This is the beginning of a beautiful friendship, you and I Testosterone. :^)

26/”m”

I was just a distraction from your life. I’m just beginning to really understand that. That fact will never stop hurting, but one day, it all won’t matter anymore.

So, there’s this girl at my school . her name is alicyn , & nobody knows but me that she has male genitals …. i dont want to tell anyone who im sleeping with ,but her balls are delicious/: i dont know what to do .

I hope you’re happy now. You wanted to be whole, so shattering me to take the pieces you wanted was all you needed. I would’ve sacrificed myself – you didn’t have to break me.

This is my first year teaching grade 2 in an inner-city public school system. Friday I was threatened by an 8yr old boy. His manner was violent and angry with the confidence of an adult. Im a 26 yr old guy and a teacher. “HE IS ONLY 8”

ALL PARENTS: PLEASE PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR CHILDREN

I acted super interested in someone that I wasn’t, just because I knew if I reciprocated their annoyance they’d leave me alone. It worked. 🙂

Yeah, it was your idea, buddy.

The last time I had sex with my husband was the conception of our child who is almost 4 now.