I HATE feeling in general. I seldom feel happiness for extended periods of time and I feel sad about 90% of the time, just generally disappointed and filled with despair. I know I should see a therapist because everyone says talking helps but I’m already on antidepressants that I started a week ago…there’s nothing a therapist could tell me right now that would make me feel better. I feel sad about everything…my life, my future, my best friend since 7th grade and how she’s getting back with her crappy shitty manipulative psycho lunatic ex boyfriend, my boyfriend who I love but hate all his annoying habits and general behavior, my unsupportive family who I haven’t even told I’m taking antidepressants because my mother would judge and criticize me, my brother called me a bitch christmas eve because I told his wife to quit wearing her feelings on her sleeve….Ive never felt so loved.
It hurts so very much badly to feel like I’m utterly alone when I’m surrounded by people I’m supposed to be closest to