I love my long distance girlfriend of about four years very much, even though when we are together in person she treats me like crap, I think.
Just a few weeks ago she told me she wanted to take a break until college, in about 6 months. I think about her using that time to have sex with other men, especially after reading this site, and I am pretty sure the paranoia alone is enough to make me never want to be with her again. But I dont think I want to be with anyone else either, I have strongly considered cutting off my ear as a gift to her and a sign of my authenticity.