I have far too many problems to list, but I do need to tell someone this.
I hate. I’m sure alot of other people hate as well, but not like this. The smallest, most insignificant thing will send me into a murderous rage. I’ve learned to control myself, and to escape situations when things look to turn violent, but lately things are getting worse and worse. I’ve smoked pot for 8-9 years and at one time it was the only thing that could calm my rages. Even smoking myself stupid doesn’t help anymore.
I hate. So fucking much. I have the most awful dreams about people that are close to me. I finally got a girlfriend, only to find that I despise everything about her. I have a few guns and I’m more than capable of doing something terrible, but…
I won’t, because I hate myself more than I hate them.