I constantly feel like I am failing. I fail as a wife, a mother,and a person even. Oh, you’re thinking “another house wife bitching when they have it good” but I wasn’t always this way. I was independent, self sufficient, maybe even going somewhere with my life. Now, I see that my life hasn’t turned out how I wanted it to and I am miserable because I can’t accept it. I can’t accept it because I know if I do, it’s game over for me. It means I am settling when I wanted to be greater. I have to accept that I am always going to be an average person with an average life. No, I am not saying that average is terrible, but I always feel like it wasn’t meant for me. I am kicking myself in the ass for being such a poor decision maker in these last years. I’ve lost my will to think on my own, and act in a manner that matters to somebody.I know I just have to suck it up and be somebody or just be me, how I used to be, if you’ll let me…I don’t know why I can’t be happy.
