I realize I picked a fight with my friend to avoid some things I didn’t want to talk to her about. She nailed me on a couple of issues I have and it hit some nerves and made me feel embarassed, but it was easier to put it off on her. Now I feel like an ass because I’ve lost someone who actually cared about me. Probably, I dissed her pretty bad. I can’t bring myself to appologize though because I feel like too much of an ass at this point. I suck but at least I have my pride or something. I miss her. DAMN IT.