A good friend confessed she had a crush on me, but I told her I didn’t see her in ‘that’ way. This is a lie: I *do* see her in that way, and I’m attracted to her and care for her deeply; I just want someone better.

Now I lead her on every now and then to make myself feel better and I get extremely jealous whenever I see her with another guy.

I’m an asshole and I hate myself for it.