I fantasize about being raped, and when I have sex with my boyfriend I think about being held down by four men and raped by a fifth. Or I think about other people being raped, all ages, either sex. I like my boyfriend to tie me down on the bed so it is easier to pretend. I like to fantasize about being used as a sex slave and being forced to do things like swallow cum. I think I have always had these tendencies.