I went through a lonely childhood, the much younger of the siblings, I never excelled at anything at school, until I found my SAT scores cumulatively ranked me in the 99th percentile.
I got my girlfriend pregnant, and we got married, and had 4 more kids. I lost my parents, one at a time, my mother died the day I was due in court for bankruptcy. I haven’t had a job in 3 years now, and no hope of one anytime soon.
Still, I’ve found that there is a solution. Not drugs, not suicide, not lashing out in anger, or hurting others. I accepted what I think was God’s solution. I now spend a lot of time helping others.
You won’t be depressed, and you’ll always find more caring and love in you than you ever thought you could have, if you take the time to help others.