Today is a hard day. I turn on the song wish you were here by Avril and I’m missing you like crazy. I need to come and visit you soon at the hgih school.There hasent been a day where I havent thought about you.If only, I knew you really did care about me… in some way i dont care. I just miss you terribly. It’s like I really lost you and I hate that feeling,but for some I keep thinking that you are thinking about me and wondering how I am. I hate this distance…
I totally had another dream about you the oher night though.It seemed soo real. I was coming to visit you at the high school and you were there in sweats (weird) but you just passed me and just looked at me and didnt say a thing. No head nod or anything. It made me sad. Then I walked over to your classroom and looked inside.I stood there for a good 5 mins or so. Then starting walking away and I ran into another teacher. I hope you arent ignoring me for real :/
I know i am enabling myself though. I have this video on my phone from some multi-media thing a student did & i can’t get the nerve to delete it from my phone.. I just miss you too much. It’s the last thing i have of you.. to remember your voice..and everything..
…I’m just afriad I’ll never get to see or talk to you ever again and it kills. 🙁
……you know who you are…..
-Nikki