i have feelings for my professor. i have been spent the last several months flirting and vying for his attention. finally i worked up the nerve to move from sending one-too-many emails to texting him. he was professional at first but texted me back when he was drunk. he said all kinds of dirty, sexy things to me. i ate it up. the next day he wanted to meet up in person and he apologized and retracted, saying what he had done was a mistake. it didn’t stop me from kissing him in his office after that, and he kissed me right back, along with slapping me on the ass. i keep hoping that he will text me again. he is all wrong for me: we have different religious beliefs, different lifestyles, he even has a gf with whom he has an “open” relationship (something which he has apparently practiced for quite a while). i wish he loved me and was different. i know this sounds desperate. i know it’s all a fantasy. but my heart is sad and i can’t deny the truth that over the course of a year i have fallen in love with him. but he doesn’t want me.
