I feel so horrible for not being emotional over my grandmothers death. From what my mother told me she was not a very nice person when she was younger and greedy and selfishly like my grandfather, however, despite her past conviction I never made an effort to go visit her and get to know her better. The only memory that I really have left of her that is clear is her at the hospital unaware of her condition and being really nice. She really wanted to live and no matter what kind of person she used to be she was always nice to me so I feel really bad about not being there, I don’t mean physically but rather emotionally and spiritually. R.I.P. grandma and I’m really sorry.