I feel so alone in this world emotionally. My family has always been there for what I need, but what I need now is something that my family cannot provide. I want to find someone in this world that I can confide in, that I can share everything with, that I can spend time with, that I can even trust with my life. I’m really wanting to get a girlfriend to start a long term relationship with. I feel that I have so much love to give with noone to receive it.
I have had VERY bad luck with women even since middle school (now a vocational school grad). I have yet to have a girlfriend that stayed around more than a week. I cry myself to sleep more often than not thinking about what I do to drive them away so badly. I treat women with respect and I genuinely care about what they have to say and what their thoughts/needs/wants are.
I don’t look at a girl to use them or for sex. I don’t care about that. I just want a nice steady relationship that I can count on for at least a few months or even years.
I don’t think I know how to read the signs that women put out as that would explain my streak of bad luck. What do I have to do to keep them around longer than a week?
I really want to find my special someone, but have no clue where to start looking. I know I have a problem with shyness with most people I don’t know. But leave me around her (especially if I like her) and I will open up and lose my shyness within a few minutes. *GROAN* What do I do?