I live for myself not out of love but out of fear. If I think about acting on achieving an ideal, I either tell myself that I am going to fail before I do anything, or get mad at myself for making mistakes for doing something courageous or risky. And then I lie in bed all day entertaining myself with crap on the Internet to hide from the painful understanding of how I use guilt as a dagger to stab myself in the heart. How do I overcome this and live for myself with love?
