This is an abusive relationship. Period. Why, God, are you leaving me in it after I have prayed and prayed to get out? All I need is the money I keep telling you. If you think I need to be here, what about the damage I have suffered? How will that ever be fixed? I don’t want to be THIS. I don’t want to be eaten up in bitterness. THAT’S NOT ME. This is not healthy. Why do you keep putting me so far away from everything that matters to me? It’s like just because I won’t destroy myself, I keep ending up in situations meant to destroy me. It’s stupid that it comes down to money and a car. Just how am I supposed to ‘escape’ in a town this size and this far from everything without either?
