I have no balls to say this

I have loved you since september last year but I haven’t been able to tell you because I don’t want to ruin our friendship. The only reason why we have friendship is because I have been “stalking” you. I am slowly beginning to see that it isn’t working. I am in love with you and have given up going to college so you will love me back. I know this will never happen but somehow I have managed to tell everyone i know about my infatuation with you – they tell me it will. But I don’t believe them.

I sound pathetic.