Sometimes I think I’m just digging myself into a deeper and deeper hole. Everything in my life seems to be a wreck now. My g/f left me because I was a jealous prick with an attitude, and I love her dearly. I don’t know what made me hurt her, but I wish I could take it all back now.
I’m afraid that I may have lost her permanently, too. I would go to the ends of the earth to have her back, but I don’t even know if it would be a good idea.
Much as I love her, there were flaws in our relationship that I don’t think she could see, or things she would never be willing to change. I feel unable to change my mind, and I want her so badly. I wonder if I will always fail at relationships…
Maybe I’m NOT good enough for her.