” Everyone has their own ways of expression” — What’s yours?
…what’s mine?
ah..how i wish i could find it..
or maybe i have found it?
It’s so hard to describe something, or to even understand something; it’s so hard to tell how i feel; it’s hard to tell people that i am glad ; they are alive, they are in happiness; their lives are plain; they live just fine
How to tell them..that i am happy if they are happy too
or how to tell myself..
even though i hate this world so much for being so cruel..
i wish there’s a part where destruction leads to an end..
i think i probably give up almost everything now, am i?
maybe not, maybe yes
there’s this song i have been listening to, and i don’t know the lyrics
but by how voices are presented, the feelings and all
probably i have received…
i have a question to them : What is it feels like to have someone keep re-looping your singing, especially day and night? Do you feel happy?
i wish you do..
i have lots of questions , and it keeps adding
even if i think i have the answers, but i can’t prove it
whether it’s true or it’s not
does it matter?
i admit that my language is too simple to be confused, and sometimes people don’t know what i am writing about;
sometimes i don’t even understand it myself
too simple, i guess? haha…
academic students; and then i need to have more fixed words for certain parts..
i guess i fail as a student
i didn’t reach that high
and i whine a lot ahaha…
there’s a dream i wanted to have and always do, in my heart:
i wish there’s another world where peaceful is always happen; everyone is so happy and tears are for the joys; everyone works ideally;
no matter what hardships they have, they always have a smile on it
they laugh , they relax, they have fun with their lives
there will be deaths, but they smile when they die
they will vanish, they will not forget, this peaceful land they used to have
there will be no enemies, they will not harm anything including the peoples of themselves
there will be no ethnicity, there will be no race
there will only be smile
where there are pains but the pains are the struggles to survive
to learn, to make mistakes, to apologize and to be friends again
and to smile again and stand up again
i might sound like being brainwashed, but deep down
i have longed parted with this reality that i am living right now
i might really not able to live this world after all
right now i wonder how will i die
hopefully not a cruel death
do i sound coward?
ahaha…sorry about that