I essentially gave up one of my best friends to try and be with you. Even with all I knew about you and who you are as a person from your own personal insight and the insights of others, I gave you a fucking chance and sacrificed a lot because I thought you could change.
I thought maybe once you were done with school and things settled that it would be better.
I now see that was a grave miscalculation on my part, and honestly have nobody to blame but myself.
It is pretty clear now, I do like you, i like you a fucking lot and when it’s reciprocated its like the light of a thousand suns shining down on me.
When I’m ignored and shot down it brings darkness to my life.
Lately you have shown no desire to be with me, it’s funny it happened as fast as it did the first time. I’m not dim I can detect patterns like anyone else. I don’t think you’re truly capable of being with someone 100 percent; it’s just not in your nature.
I wish you would just be honest with me and let me go. I can’t take the constant hot and cold its causing so much anxiety and stress in a life that is already riddled with both.