i think im in love with my 14 year old neighbor. im 19. shes a girl im a guy. we got into a fight one night cause she thought i was coming onto her or going to rape her. 4 months later she apologised, but that night she got her boyfriends to all threaten me. i later snuck into her house and stole photos of her.. i told myself it was to remember her by. i look at them every night while i masturbate. she is my sexual fantasy personified. i hate myself for liking her. we have so much in common yet we are complete social oposites. she is the most beautiful popular girl in school and im practicaly the oposite.
it hurts so much every time i hear her and her friends having fun. i often sit at my window and listen to them or watch them.
i used to spy on her alot and jerk off. ive seen her naked a few times. my life has been ruined just because this girl was born good looking and i cant help being attracted to her. all i know is pain. ill probably end up telling her everything, except about the photos and spying on her. we are still friends but it just isnt the same after what hapenned. on one hand i want her to fall in love with me, but she has a boyfriend and her lifestyle is just too different from mine, i know it wouldnt work, even though we would make a good couple. i just want it to end but im too nice to commit suicide or anything. my parents wouldnt like that. i hate my parents but they still love me. life sucks sometimes..
i dont know whether to hide my love and just try to go back to being good friends again, or to just get over it and ignore her, or to confess everything to her and allow myself to fall in love with her. man. wish she could read this. she doesnt even have a computer. so much pain.. but ill get over it. life goes on. thanks for listening 😉
