I treated someone who did nothing to deserve it pretty poorly. I didn’t mean to hurt him, but I could have handled it all much better. We started dating, and within a couple of weeks I realised though it was a lot of fun, it wasn’t going to be a long-term thing for me. I meant to be honest with him, but he seemed to be falling in love, so I chickened out of telling him every time for fear of hurting him, realising full well that I was just making it worse in the long run. I’d see him and sleep with him, but not respond when he said things like “I missed you”, which must have been fucking painful for him.
I finally worked up the courage to tell him yesterday. He’d been pretty distant for a week, and said he’d been planning to have the same conversation with me. I really hope that he did just decide we weren’t a good match as a couple, but I’m afraid I made him unhappy enough that he decided he was better off without me.
I’m really sorry, Isaac. You’re a lovely, sweet, funny and interesting guy, and I hope you meet a wonderful girl who appreciates all that and makes you happy.
