sometimes i fantasize about telling everyone how awful my boyfriend’s been to me, all the stupid things he does (he doesn’t beat me or anything, he’s just inconsiderate), in public, so he’d be ashamed. but actually i know i’d lose him after that, and that scares me, because i do love him (that’s why i put up with the crap). i just fantasize about all our friends saying ‘i had no idea’ and ‘isnt’ he horrible’ and everything, and him saying he’s so sorry and that he loves me more than anything.
but i’ll never do it like that. i just couldn’t stand to see him that unhappy and shamed.