By nature i have a very vengeful heart. When people hurt me i think of many cruel ways i can get them back. When people make me mad physical reaction my body goes through feels discusting and makes it feel as if im about to erupt. Yet i dont strike out physically. I do everything i can to not get someone back. If i ever lash out in defense verbally its because i cant control it. I wish certain people understood that its an effort i make to be nice when i really want to yell. I wish men could understand this when they pull their power play shit on me. Cuz in my head im rippin out hair and stomping on their face. 🙂
