Okay… here it goes. I recently broke up with my boyfriend of one year, although he treated me like crap, he was insanly jelious and never let me do anything with out his permission, I ended up being more of a slave than a girlfriend. But none the less I broke up with him a few months ago because he moved to Minnesota over the summer… he didnt tell me he just moved and then was surprised when I was angry. But anyways I started talking to this guy that I have a lot of history with, kindof like one of those high school crushes you can never seem to stop liking? Well we started talking again and after a while we started going out. I have very strong feelings for Collin, very strong, but I also still terribly LOVE David.Everytime I try to call him he acts like he still likes me too… I know a real relationship with David would never work, and fantisizing aboutone wont make it any easier on my mind… but I miss what I had with him. I feel Like I am cheating Collin, he treats me so damn well.. he deserves the best. He told me that if I ever left him he would die of heartbreak. I know it sounds corny but if you knew him.. you would understand. I just Miss David SOO much.
I hate how he treated me…
I hate how he locked me down…
I hate how he beat me…
I hate how he let me down.
and yet… I still love him.