I have autophobia, the fear of being alone. A week ago I thought I had lost all my friends, and I freaked. I was depressed for like a week. It was sad. Whenever I thought about it I would freak out and start hyperventilating and crying, I just could not deal with it. And then my best friend and I woked things out and I feel fine. Its kind of pathetic. Because of my autophobia it is incredibly easy for people (guys) to take advantage of me. And I know this yet it still happens. I do dumb things (like drugs and sex etc.) to get attention from my friends and when they don’t pay attention to me I feel worse. I’m so dependent. I hate it. I hate myself. One of my friends told me I don’t like to be alone because I don’t like myself and I think she’s right.
