i had a boyfriend and we were pretty serious, like the topic of marriage had come up multiple times. he’d moved so he lived in the same city as me and all but things started to go sour… and i went running back to a friend i’d fooled around with before i had this boyfriend. and so eventually the boyfriend moved away and even tho no one was quite sure we were broken up i was back in bed with my friend a week after the boyfriend was gone.
i feel kinda rotten about this. i think i really ruined any chances we had of fixing that relationship.
on the other hand, i don’t think we had much chance. but i can’t even decide if i cheated on him or not, and it bothers me.