Love,
I am not a pill head, I am not a smoker (pot or otherwise), I am not a drunk, I do not drink, I do not sniff, I do not shoot up, I do no drugs of any kind. I’ve had a horrible past that you seem to brush off. You knew of my past, long before we became serious, long before I left home for you; and yet you tried to hide the fact that you practice the very thing I ran away from. I despise you for it! How could you? You let me walk into this relationship in a blindfold, telling me how wonderfully you’d treat me, how I’d be your princess, how good it would be…and here I sit…typing my feelings to goodness knows who because Ive no one else to tell…you pretended to want to help me get over the abuse I went through by druggie parents all while knowing you are a druggie yourself! How could you not know I’d find out?! How could you not think I would notice all the signs? I lived this life for 20yrs and I’ll NOT live it over again! I’ll NOT! Do you hear me? Lay a hand on me once more and I am gone! Touch the stuff once more and I am gone! Cause a ruckus again because you are high and I am gone! Use the money I lend you for “chocolate, candy, cigarettes, gas” for pills again and I am GONE! You tried to tell me you need them to be okay, well honey…so did my parents. If you cannot stop alone and if you refuse to get help, then…I’m sorry…I must go…you were my first love, where did I go wrong? Didnt I learn from my life growing up? How could I be so stupid? Why did I not see it before he caught my heart? :'(
