there are only pictures flashed onto my mind, if only i could draw them up..
but they were nightmares..how could i even draw them in the first place?
what if i convert them into words?
but words are not able to explain the traumas and nightmares that i had…
those are memories..
they are scarier than i thought
and i couldn’t forget about them, i couldn’t lead myself a normal life
whenever i realize there’s such nightmares and traumas
or that people in this world had to go through them..
i can’t be happy
i have no reason to be happy
even though i wish everyone could be happy
but i just can’t be happy
whenever i know there’s someone out there suffer…
and all i can do is keep floating those sadness , written with words…
or keep it here, posting here
and it’s excruciating..