I am a friendly outgoing person with a wonderful boyfriend, an ambitious career and parents who support me. My friends rely on me for being steadfast and strong. In every way I know I have so much going for me. What is really funny to me is that everyday I think about dying. No one realized how much I daydream about taking a bottle of pills and passing out forever. I laugh because I know how sick it is that I find it so funny. I really laugh so hard I start crying and then I laugh some more. Am I such a good actor? Do I hide it so well? Or do they just not care? Either way I may just have an “accident” one day and even then I think no one will suspect me…. pretty sick but I find it funny.
