well…i don’t want to hurt my boyfriend but even though he had forbidden me to call M at home..(no i was not alone with him..my parents were there)…but still i agreed to M’s proposal of coming home. i could not say no…he has done so much for me.
i also want to confess that i am attracted to M…i mean he’s so caring and understanding and A’s insecurities just drag me away from him towards M.
i am trying my best to get him out of my mind. and at night when i think of my life with A …i just don’t see him anymore it’s M now-a-days. i understand its wrong and i slap myself when these thoughts come into my head..but they just don’t go away…
i don’t know what’s with M but i really love A…its just that i find it difficult to trust him..whereas if there is one person that i know who will always be there for me is M.
am i doing wrong? of course i am. but A is like always doubting me and taunting me about M. it hurts once M gave me a flower i didn’t want to tell A but i told him and explained at least i was honest…he says,”be honest and tell me next time when he kisses you!”…what the hell? i don’t love him(M) its just a stupid attraction that will fade away….hopefully.
