maybe i did settle for the last two bfs i had. idk, they both dumped me though. i thought the last one was sexy for so long… but he was a shit bf. he also cheated on me.. i think i must be ugly or i just have no self esteem or something’s gotta give cause i’m not doing this anymore. I am worth something. i am worthy of love and affection and romance, and god knows i’ve given it out to these guys, they just don’t give anything back but i keep giving anyway. that’s what low self esteem is. i thought it was my fault they weren’t giving as much as i was. maybe they didn’t find me that cute or whatever, but that’s still stupid of them to waste BOTH of our time on someone who they didn’t find worth it. if i wasn’t worth it, let me go- well, they did- but idk. i hope someone finds me beautiful one day, beautiful enough to marry and have children with even. beautiful enough to look me in the eyes every morning and think, god, how did i get so lucky?
