Wow right now on my media player is the song I want to know what love is…..how fitting. It’s been about a week since I found out she has a girlfriend. Since I’m out of ‘the loop’ I was of course the Last to know. Ugh, and I found out by seeing pics of them together online. Damn pics! It’s been one hell of a week. I’ve cried, felt suicidal, anger, denial the whole works. It’s hard to put into words what I think or feel. It’s been hard admitting wow this is it, she’s really moved on and so much faster than me. I love her, and I now know that it’s okay to love someone even if they don’t love you back, even if you feel it’s more than you love yourself….because love is a wonderful beautiful thing. I’m not going to fight it anymore and just be. It’s so hard, but Of course since I love her I want her to be happy.
I find some comfort and thinking about the kind of person I want to be with-would I really want to be with someone who doesn’t respect or have true feelings for me?
I can only hope and pray that I too will find that happiness I had with her, at least on some level with someone else-someday. I can only hope and pray that someone will feel for me at least Half of what I feel for her.