I know I’m always mean to you when all you try to be is nice to the socially awkward girl that I am. I really didn’t mean to snap at you when you bought me food, or when you started calling me sweet little nicknames… I just never know how to react. I don’t have a lot to tell you so I just say what goes through my mind and they aren’t nice things. I’m sorry… I really feel guilty and ashamed about being so mean to you, I am just not used to feeling anything, I’m so used to just being in my own bubble when I’m at work… I just feel like you’ll just be another guy whom I expect too much from and that will reject me if I tell you about how much I think about you. I know it’s not a good excuse, but it’s all I’ve got. I’m working on it, for both our sakes. I’ll try and be smiley and happy this week so that when we work together this weekend I’ll actually look how you make me feel inside. Thanks for caring.
