I am afraid that my friends are all going to end up leaving me. I am obsessed with an ex bf and I know how unhealthy it is, but I can’t seem to snap out of it. I really feel like I lost everything that mattered to me when I lost him. I think about him constantly and I’m always sad. My friends know and I know that they love me, but they are all in relationships with great girls/guys and I think I’m depressing them. I keep trying…I’ve had 2 relationships and several good dates since he left me. But none of them have meant anything to me. I feel like I’m just going thru the motions of an actual life. I don’t even really want to be around anyone right now. I’d like to just be alone until I sort out my mess of a life that I’ve created. But I’m afraid if I lay low for awhile again that I’ll either lose my friends for good or I’ll get too lost in my own head and end up back in that place I never wanna go back to. The only friends I want to be around are the few single ones who are just as miserable as I am. But they are not my close friends. What should I do? How do I stop feeling love for someone who doesn’t even exist in my world anymore? How can I stop feeling like I’ll never be able to love anyone again? How do you get over someone who once made you feel like you were special? How long until this nightmare ends? It’s been 6 months now…I’m not sure how much more loss and heartache I can handle!